Time seems to rush past me with cruelty and I find that in
my daily reminiscing, all my memories and recollections of my happy schooldays
are fading or dulling at the edges. I have never been great with details but
here, somehow, I find myself clinging to every last bit of information about a
certain day or a certain month or a certain thing with all the tenacity of a
man holding on to flotsam in the sea. This
post is one desperate bid to hold close some very special moments I have shared
lest they slip from my hands. I want to be able to show my grandchildren this
post and then fondly talk about those sunny days when we only knew laughter and
sadness was something that bowled you over when you broke your favorite toy.
So, where was I?
Aah, yes. Class 12. PT period. The second period on
Wednesday, preceded by the mind-numbing, ennui-inducing chemistry
period.(please don’t kill me for saying that)The chemistry period lasted from
7.55 to 8.35 and everyone rushed out like a horde of angry bulls in the bull
run in Pamplona the second the bell rang. Wednesday was all about the PE period;
everyone would just come into class, drop their bags off and start talking
about what team they would play in.
To set the scene- we were six to seven backbenchers who, I
believe, came to school on Wednesday just to play basketball. I was the only
one who wore a watch in the entire row or was I the only one who nagged
everyone around me for the time? I can’t remember exactly. So this is what it
sounded like.
7.59 am
GR: “What time is it?”
Friend: “Lot of time left. “
GR: “God, this is boring.”
Teacher: “Gayathri, stop talking please.”
GR:*buries face into her chemistry textbook and can almost
feel the book radiating “I-am-boring”ness.*
8.07am
GR: “What time is it?”
Friend: “Half an hour left.”
GR: “You said that ten minutes back.”
Friend: “I didn’t.”
GR: “Are you sure you
know how to tell the time?”
Teacher: “There, in the back, have you solved the questions
assigned?”
Us (Faux interestedly): “We’re working on it, ma’am.”
8.15 am
GR: “What time is it?”
Friend: “Twenty left.”
GR: “Oh thank you God.”
Friend: “Could you work out problem 5 on page 345?”
GR: “Are you kidding me? I am not even paying attention to
this shit.”
Friend: *no comment*
8.28 am
GR: *taps wrist and gestures*
Friend: *holds up five fingers*
8.31 am
GR: “Khatam hua ki nahiin?”(Has it finished yet?)
Friend: “Paanch minute”(Five
minutes)
GR: “Tune paanch minute pehle hi paanch minute kaha tha.”(You said five minutes five minutes ago)
Friend:“Har do minute poochegi toh kya bolunga?”(What am I supposed to say if you keep asking
every two minutes?)
8.34 am
Now I am really on edge, fidgeting endlessly and I can’t
wait to shut my book with a loud slam.
Teacher: “Gayathri,
please tell me the answer to problem 7.”(Because she is mighty irritated with
me)
I somehow fumble through, my ego/pride kicks in its
self-preservation mechanism and I manage to deliver the answer. I am not
perfect, but perfection in a chemistry problem is hardly what I am aiming for
right now. Not with the prospect of forty blissful minutes of freedom looming
in front of me.
8.35 am
*runs from the classroom looking like someone fleeing a
burning house or running an Olympic race*
I hope I have managed to catch the moments succinctly
enough. I believe some explanation is due.
We always had two PE/PT periods a week. While we squandered
all our PE period in eleventh by ambling about aimlessly and gossiping, we
craved for it in class 12 with all the fervor of a thirsty man searching for
water to quench his thirst. Wednesdays and Fridays always, without fail had full attendance along with the added
presence of a football or two. The class divided itself into two sections- the
one that played football (which was all-guy) and the one that played basketball
(a mixed crowd). I belonged, as is obvious, to the basketball crowd and was
probably one of the rowdiest players in the gang.
After playing a few
games in class 11, all my classmates hit upon a startling conclusion- we all
played basketball with skill and more importantly, with abandon. And what was
more, however you split us into two teams, the two sides were always evenly matched.
After this collective realization, basketball was agreed upon by an unwritten
law as the game of Class 12-D.
Basketball was panacea. It was forty minutes of wild
unfettered joy; of a release of worry, tension; of a display of
come-on-I-can-do-it aggression; of name calling and hair snatching; of playing
the game in a manner even cavemen shy at. Technically, the game we played was
not fundamentally basketball-it was a hybrid of basketball, rugby and
kabbadi.All the rules just went out of the window and it was just us 14 or so
people and a red colored ball between two baskets. And why did we cling to the
game so? Or at least, as I can only speak for myself, why did I cling to the game so? Apart from the
aforementioned reasons-basketball implied freedom. Freedom from the worry of your
board exams, freedom from the worry of ever mounting schoolwork, freedom from
societal pressures to perform well (we’re all Asian), freedom from anxiety
about getting into a college and freedom most of all from the insides of your
own head. And why do I say that? As anyone who has gone through the rigorous
grind of CBSE class 12 will tell you- a twelfthie’s mind is just obsessed with
three things – school, tuition/coaching, performance. While there are glaring
exceptions to the rule (I am NOT one of them), all our minds were forever
filled with the putrid stench of “What can I do to score better?” and “What can
I do to get into a decent college?”Some of my friends/acquaintances didn’t show
this much on their features but somehow they always ended up being the most
expressive ones in a feisty basketball game.
There were three categories of players (or so I like to
classify them):-
1.
Players- the ones who can really play well, and can give the school team a run for their
money. Though their motivations to play basketball were the same as mine, some
of the reasons overlapped with control issues- while you couldn’t control your
grades or your college applications from careening wildly into the dust heap,
you could control that red ball and all the people waiting around it like
hungry dogs. You could shoot extremely well and emerge winner. For such people,
the game implied two words-“predictability” and “control”
2.
Screamers-People who didn’t know to play much,
but they usually captained teams because of the high decibels their voices
could achieve. They didn’t get possession of the ball as long as they would’ve
liked to, but they sure as hell got the onlookers’ attention. Screaming
manifested itself in three ways- they either yelled at their teammates for
being incompetent nitwits or screeched their lungs out at the one who currently
held possession of the ball-usually giving them advice as to where the ball’s
next destination might be(usually “Pass kar. Main free hoon.”)- or they swore
like sailors at the opposite teams.(If an opponent team member did something
intergalactically foolish-like passing the ball to someone from the other team-
the screamers usually showered such walking models of ignominy with “I love you”)
3.
Hangers-on- Don’t let the name fool you. These
people were THE most important members of the game. Hangers-on are never great players;
truth be told, they suck big time. But, they are the stabilizing glue that
prevents the team from exploding like a supernova because of its own brilliance
and aggression. Usually, these people don’t care much for the game and are never
too driven to win it. They are just there to enjoy themselves because it is a
free period and good humouredly take part in whatever foolhardiness their more tempestuous
teammates may plan. They observe the other categories of players with mild
interest and amusement-akin to someone watching kittens play with a ball of
wool. They never take the game developments seriously and observe violent
arguments from the background with a smirk.
Evidently, I recognize myself chiefly with
the first two types.
And now the game itself.
Time was precious, ticking by
mercilessly so we had to make optimum use of it, usually by cutting ten minutes
of the next period. Games often devolved into Gladiator matches, complete with
a bloodhound crowd hungry for battle. People would fall, bruise their knees,
twist their ankles or tear a tendon but the game wouldn’t stop. Super obsessed
people like me never even noted when a warrior fell, marching on grimly,
throwing in a few choice swear words to the entire opponent team. Name calling
was a given. I am not ashamed to say that I have sworn like a fishwife at some
of my best friends in the heat of the game- an official amnesty would be issued
at the end of it- no hard feelings. Sometimes, the two teams would polarize
into a twisted version of the jaded “boys vs. girls”-we won, no doubt. And then
there was the “yeh mera boyfriend, chhodo isse” conundrum.Which I would LOVE to
explain here.
To put it succinctly, whenever
anyone gained possession of the ball and someone else tried to snatch it, said possessor
of ball would hug the ball to their chest and bend-hence cutting off all access
to it. Sometimes, a tug of war would ensue-so virulently violent that best
mates would turn into snarling adversaries. At times like these, I used to
dance around the involved parties and sing (in a faux girly, high pitched voice
even KJo doesn’t make his actors use)”Chhodo isse, yeh mera boyfriend
hai.Nahhiin, yeh mera hai.”(Leave him alone, he’s my boyfriend; no, no he is
mine)
Aah, the fun I’ve had in this
lifetime.
If the footballers ever came to
play with us, they would usually be appalled that you are not “double dribble”
or that the court was so teensy small that two passes and one shot at the
basket meant score. Or they would do something super silly as dribble the ball
standing outside the court-ten voices would scream “Foul”.
And the one last and personal
favorite, dimension was Foul. Or rather the perpetrating of an unlawful act on
a basketball court. Usually involved tripping, violent snatching (this has left
gash marks on the arms of many of us), or shoulder pushing. At any such
incident, one loud bellow would issue forth from the mouths of the team members,
“Foul”. Usually involved parties would fake their injuries a bit longer to get
the ball to return to favorable hands.
We all lost all sense whatsoever of propriety and sometimes clothes were torn (I
am thinking of one memorable occasion here). We went at each other like madmen
(and I don’t mean that positively or sexually) and emerged with disheveled hair,
sprains or injuries, uniforms that dripped with sweat. We also usually smelled
real bad- but now I like to think that there were tones in our malodor-tones of
victory, tones of achievement, tones of defeat, tones of anger, tones of
aggression, tones of hurt, tones of determination, but most importantly of
all-tones of freedom.
So after my lengthy recollection that is sure as hell not
going to fade with time- I am so glad my grandchildren will know the things I
did as a teen-because this is written here. After this exercise, I have realized
that happy memories are written in indelible ink, they will never fade with
time. And why is that? Because every time you think of a moment of such wild,
giddy happiness-details don’t matter; what matters is the rush of warmth in
you, that tingling in your toes, the whale-sized butterflies in your tummy and
most importantly of all, that grin you sport on your face. See, that very one
that you are smiling right now.